Album Review: Patternist: I Don't Know What I'm Doing Here
I Don't Know What I'm Doing Here
Patternist, the brainchild of musician Gabe Mouer, has been giving us his synth driven indie rock in small doses with several EPs and singles, all leading to this moment; the release of his debut full-length album I Don’t Know What I’m Doing Here. The album was first introduced through his music video for “I Don’t Feel Real,” a moody mid-tempo that sings of facing the extreme loneliness that comes in the wake of heartbreak and not being able to cope with it as he confesses, “me and myself, we don’t get along.” This idea of not being able to cope with life’s inevitable setbacks seems to be a running theme throughout this album. On “I’ve Got It,” “Feature’s Dead, Angela,” and “Summer Reading List,” he explores the idea of “time spent in my head,” which gives off the feeling to the listener that he is a loner who prefers his own company even though his thoughts in these alone times are what’s tearing him apart with anxiety and stress. He explores the avenues that come with the depression of leaving behind your hometown and all your memories on “Bikes,” tries to figure out how not to push someone away on “Keep Your Love,” and recognizes that he’s headed for a breakdown on “No One Waits For You.” Overall, the songs stay in a mostly friendly mid-tempo range as he explores the confusing downsides to life more often then not in his lyrics. I often say in conversation that kids today need an artist that helps them feel so not alone in their confusion, depression, and whatever they are going through and having to deal with whether it be broken hearts, self-esteem issues, etc. I Don’t Know What I’m Doing Here is that album and Patternist is that artist.